Freedom

Today I learned a new lesson. I really love running. When I 'm not worried about whos watching and when I'm not trying to push myself too hard, it is great. I have learned to enjoy the moment! There an immense amount of freedom in being aware of each breath aware of each thought. Today I enjoyed time to breath and process and enjoy being healthy. The best part about running is the freedom to think about no one but myself. I spend so much of my day tempering my emotions, thoughts, and actions by those around me and how I will effect them. BUT today I ran and I didn't have to care for anyone but myself. No need to worry about whether my running partner is tired or not, if they want to run faster or slower, whether or not they want to stop. There was no need to motivate anyone but me, no need to be responsible for anyone but me...ME ME ME ME! YES! JUST ME!!! I resolve today to protect my time for myself. I'm not going to be responsible to help motivate anyone else to run. I am letting go of all the pressure I have felt help motivate my friends to run or exercise. Especially my skinny friends who don't feel any of the stigmas of being fat and feeling unable to do things. When it comes to running I'm just going to motivate ME! FREEEEDDDDDOMMMM!